Melancholy is the main character of GodBorn. Ever since breaking up with their long-time partner and best friend Nonchalant, they have struggled with constant homelessness and unemployment. While house hopping, Melancholy managed to find herself in many romantic flings, all ending fairly disastrous. Eventually she meets a young woman named Nimble, who she quickly bonds with. After a smooth 6 months of dating, things take a turn for the worst when Melan wakes up one night to Nimble trying to harvest her blood. Obviously, like anyone who would be in this predicament, Melan runs as far away as possible. This is where the story begins.
Psychokinesis [head popping especially | lacks proper control], Retrocognition & Precognition [limited, but tends to know knowledge that they shouldn’t when the time is right], ridiculous empathy, living encyclopedia of all things soft [like plushies].
Plushies, cute clothes, collecting many chokers, convenience stores [and pestering the people who work there], thrift stores, wandering for hours aimlessly, looking in people’s refrigerators to make sure they aren’t hiding anything, swinging at the park at night.
- Melancholy's hair is shaped into heart shaped curls. Most of the time two large ones are seen, but any curled end of hair usually has the heart shape.
- Her eyebrows are also heart shaped, along with the shine in her eyes. When her eyes are dull, her exposed pupils are chevrons.
- In events of extreme stress she experiences exotropia - her eyes turn outward.
- She has some faint scars on her thighs. She no longer self harms really, but in moments of extreme distress the wounds warp into gruesome eyes that weep.
- Her forehead contains another eye, but it is typically hidden. This eye isn't only bound to her head, as it can move anywhere it pleases. When she is in full power [GOD MODE] the eye takes over the majority of her face, giving her the appearance of a cyclops.
- Typical Melancholy outfit includes: leather choker, high waisted shorts, ripped striped tights, tiny shirt. They love to wear their platform knee high converse. Rarely wears skirts or dresses
They live everyday with a deep dread but they can’t quite put their finger on it. Even when life seems to be fine (and mostly it’s not fine), there’s that horrible feeling of “something’s not right”. Melancholy’s the type of person who’s okay with putting herself into a “bad” situation because everything is probably a bad situation in the end. Plus they’re convinced they can’t die.
Melan seemingly has these “powers” but she’s not quite sure how to control or even prove them. She thinks that some other people probably “know” but of course they aren’t gonna give her any credit for it. She has many theories behind what these “powers” are, but despite her open nature she’s hesitant to share what those theories might be. Any attempt to practice or control her abilities only leads to her feeling embarrassed or shameful, so she’s sort of given up on trying. She’s hopeful that maybe she’ll have some sort of major psychic outburst that will at least Prove she’s not making anything up.
There’s two modes of socialization for Melancholy: extreme quiet or non-stop oversharing. If someone pisses off Melancholy she will undoubtedly talk shit about them. Usually that's the oversharing. To the average person, Melancholy might appear as lacking thoughtfulness and being simple minded. In reality she’s extremely internalized with her true feelings, only being comfortable with outwardly showing the persona she’s constructed. Melancholy is actually quite cynical, and tends to throw herself into bad situations out of pure curiosity towards what others reactions might be. She’s pretty good at reading people, so when they react in a way she deems “typical”, she’s often disappointed.
She’s not interested in being popular or liked, but she has a strong desire to spread joy, simply out of kindness. This often leads her to share her kindness with people who don’t deserve it. She’s not naive, she simply can’t control it. While she may be kind, she is also not afraid to let others know she doesn’t care for them. This leads her to appear two faced, being nice one moment, but absolutely rude the next. Course, Melan only does this with people who piss her off.
For who knows how long, Melancholy has been stuck in an infinite loop of reincarnation and no escape from ANHEDONIA. Cursed to live through traumatic events and die a horrendously painful death by age 30, by the time she regains her memories of what's happening to her it's too late. Anhedonia is not her God or home dimension and she has no recollection of why she’s there in the first place. It’s unclear how many lives she’s lived while in Anhedonia, but it’s been long enough that she’s lost all hope of ever leaving. She refuses to completely give in to Anhedonia though, as she fears it would swallow her whole if she stops putting up a fight.
During one of her many lives on Anhedonia, Melancholy met a strange but beautiful individual named Zen. She understood them to be also non-mortal, and they both grew close with their shared anomalous experiences. Eventually, Melancholy disclosed to Zen about her predicament: that when she would turn 30 everything would “restart” after she’d die a torturous death. Naturally this mortified Zen, but they had a solution. If Melancholy drank their blood, then she would become a god, just like them. With the powers she would receive as a god she could escape from Anhedonia and start a new existence with Zen. Melan was reluctant at first, but after a near-death experience right before her 30th birthday she was practically begging Zen for their blood.
Zen’s god blood was too powerful for Melancholy, and she was consumed with her ever growing despair towards the aeons of trauma shes had to endure. Nearly sucking Zen dry of their blood, she sapped roughly 1/4th of their power permanently from their body. As a new born god, her mind was unstable and desired ruthless revenge against her long time captor, Anhedonia. As she was leaning in to conquer and consume her foe, Zen stabbed into her GOD EYE, temporarily leaving her helpless. Zen’s careless decision left Melancholy open for attack, thus Anhedonia managed to seize her once again. After banishing Zen, Anhedonia began to concentrate most of its own power keeping them out. Meanwhile, while Melancholy’s eternal torment was lessened, she was still held captive with no memory of becoming a god. At least a millennia has gone by and she’s still none the wiser to the power she holds.
In her current life, Melancholy hasn’t regained any memory of her predicament. She only knows that something isn’t right and that misfortune follows her no matter where she goes. Growing up she dealt with significant abuse from her family,, which eventually led to her running away as a teenager. As she couch surfed, she was followed by many awful events. Unable to find a source of income or a stable place to stay, she dropped out of school and began to take up some unhealthy habits. Eventually she started to date her longtime best friend Nonchalant, and the two moved in together after she finally found herself a steady job. Her relationship with Nonchalant only furthered her own internal demise unfortunately.
Pictures of Melancholy can be found on her ToyHouse