[DREAMS FROM THE YEAR 2020]

2020 marks the year I started to write my dreams down again. Hopefully in 2021 I'll record more. Below are 16 dreams, I hope you enjoy reading them.




[DREAM 12/31/2020]

Gore Show

It’s evening and I’m sitting on a couch with some friends. We were watching a show on a huge HD flatscreen tv. The whole room had a brown theme going on. The tv show was gruesome and somber, showing that an elderly couple was about to be burned alive on a gameshow. They were tied to a stake, wiggling around and screaming.

I didn't wanna watch the show anymore so I tried to get up and leave, but one of the friends on the couch insisted "everything ends up okay for them, just keep watching". I reluctantly sat back down and the game show announcer appeared on the screen. He points a strange gun at the couple and their bodies explode into a violent mess of gore. The gore spills from the tv and splatters all over my friends and I. The only thing that is tangible in the visceral pile is the eyeballs of the deceased couple, intact. My friends think it's gross but hilarious, and I’m filled with regret and disgust.




[DREAM 12/18/2020]

Ross

Ian and I were driving around and eventually came up to a Ross Dress For Less store. We entered in hopes of finding weird food for Christmas gifts, although thinking of it now I don't believe ross usually carries food. As we walked in we realized something is very different about this Ross- all the clothing was removed and it was converted into a sort of cheap food restaurant. It basically looked like a cafeteria but with furniture and various other knickknacks surrounding the perimeter. Ian and I went into the line for food under the impression that if so many people were here then the food must be food.

While waiting in line, more people started to pool in. Everybody was very jam-packed in the building. Suddenly I noticed Ian and I are not wearing our masks. We put them on, but mine feels a bit too loose like my nose will become exposed. I was uncomfortable with the lack of social distancing so I suggest we leave. The food probably wasn't worth it anyway. On the way out we look at some of the cheap furniture, but none of it catches my eye. They were selling ipods that looked like mini guitars, but asides that it was all typical.

We walked out of the store and to the car. Ian is already in the car, and just as I'm about to get in, some asshole in a fancy car crashes into our car on Ian's side. Ian is okay, but can't get out of the car from their door now. I rush over to the asshole driver’s door and begin to yell at him.

He looks like a basic white rich dude, but maybe slightly younger than expected. His hair is bleach blonde and slicked back and his lips were pathetically tiny. His face pissed me off. I took his hand and I broke it in half at the palm, but he seemed unfazed. He dangled it around for a second then looked at me and said in a quiet yet demonic voice: "do you wanna....go out?". He then proceeded to grab my head inward towards his face and we started making out. I woke up.




[DREAM 12/14/2020]

Doppelganger (cw: nsfw)

There was more to the dream then what I remember, but we'll start from where it got interesting. I was in the bathroom of my apartment talking to another person. I knew what they looked like but I never actually looked at their face. They looked like my doctor: Black, thin, long dark locks and in her 30's. But I knew she wasn't my doctor. We were very close to each other and she was playing with my hair. I recall us talking, her voice was gentle and androgynous, non-human in its inflection and speech patterns. I can't remember the conversation we had. I mentioned that I wanted her to do my hair in cornrows (which is hilarious because it's something my mom always wanted to do to me, but I felt I was too white passing for the hairstyle).

Suddenly I realize we are both naked. I tell her that if she was trying to be a mother to me that it was inappropriate for her to be holding me while naked. She laughs and transforms. Now she looks like my partner, Ian. They move in an inhuman manner. They crawl like a spider into the tub, which is filled with a shallow amount of cold water. I get into the tub with them.

It didn't quite occur to me that this thing wasn't Ian. The fact it transformed didn't bother me much either. It's face was not like Ian's, but rather distorted. I mostly recall a monstrous and large smile. We talked, it's voice unchanged from it's previous form. Yet again I can't remember what we talked about but it wasn't a short conversation. It felt like something important was said.

It began to fiddle my pussy (lol) with it's big toe. It sort of felt good, but I was disturbed at the idea of anyone's foot near my vagina. I pushed their foot away from me, and they teased me. Suddenly it hits me that this thing isn't Ian. I can hear Ian outside the bathroom door asking me if I'm okay and if anything was wrong. I look over and the Ian doppelganger looks even more intense.

I look over at the door and the doppelganger says "I wouldn't open the door if I were you". They said it in such a way that was both spiteful yet playful.

I jump out the tub and run for the door. When I swing it open, I see the real Ian in the hallway. I scream at them to run and get out of the apartment. I'm still naked, so I quickly grab a coat and run out the front door after them. For whatever reason I asked them to close the front door after I left, despite the fear that the doppelganger might harm them.

We're out on the streets in front of the apartment complex. It’s nighttime, the air is cold and it's raining lightly. Ian ran far ahead and I told them I'll catch up but that I need to take care of something first. I woke up, gasping for air.




[DREAM 10/10/2020]

5:55 am

It's night time. Ian and I are hanging around in the living room of the house my mom owned. For whatever reason though we own the house instead. I think the TV is on. I hear gunshots across the street. Lots of gunshots. And then an alarm goes off and a car flies away. I tell Ian "sounds like a burglary".

I run over to an open window on the staircase. I can see the neighbors house. The scene replays: a cop drives up to their house, their front door is open. The cop knocks but before the people have any time to react, the cop starts shooting everything up. There's a woman and man inside but I can barely see them. The woman doesn't have arms, and for whatever reason I know she's a mom. The cop shot her point blank and I watched her body thump lifelessly to the floor. The husband I think is still alive, but injured. I know they have young children, and they’re in the house upstairs possibly. The cop rushes away to his getaway car and it zooms off. Loud alarms blare through the neighborhood.

I run downstairs, and yell across the room at Ian "stop what you're doing, we have to take shelter upstairs!". I'm afraid for our lives. I woke up.




[DREAM 10/8/2020]

Two dreams | Burger Lace and Mold

All I remember from dream one was being in line at a jamba juice in a mall. It was my turn to order. "I'd like the burger lace pizza please". The pizza had ground beef aligned in a lace doily design. I thought it was the funniest thing and I woke up laughing. Told Ian about it in a half dazed state.

Second dream, Ian and I live in a community that took shelter within a theater. There’s a stage play going on that never ends. We slept where the seats were supposed to be, but it was only blankets on the ground and no mattress. My bedside setup had many of my dolls laying down, taking up most of my space. Our bed was touching many other strangers' beds and they were all lined up fairly neatly.

Extremely toxic mold is quickly infesting the building. If it’s breathed in, it will grow within the lungs and kill you. If it touches the skin, it will grow and take over the body and kill you. The mold was fast growing and could overcome the building within an hour. We had to act fast to save my doll collection.

I had nothing to carry the dolls in so I had to pick the most important ones. As I'm preparing and choosing, more people spill into the theater, acting as if everything is safe. The mold is on the walls and spreading. The more people in the room, the higher the humidity. The more humidity, the quicker the mold grows. Nobody cares and they ignore it. I mention to someone that they are in danger and they look at me like I'm crazy.

Ian insists I take one of my novi star dolls, but I think that’s ridiculous cus they’re easy to replace. I take her because it pleases Ian but I leave another doll I wanted to take behind because of it. I also take a vintage black kenner blythe doll. (this doll doesn’t exist in the waking world. My dreams love to tease me.)

I'm in another part of the building that is seemingly safe. I approach someone on a couch who I think I know. I believe they might have been one of my sisters. They offer me a box to hold my dolls in. I open the box but it is filled with mold and I breathe it in. I say "It's filled with mold I think", and then the horror strikes me. My lungs are infected. I'm going to die soon, and what a horrible death it will be. The rush of fear wakes me.




[DREAM 9/3/2020]

I was in a stadium of some sort watching an event. every seat was filled. The aesthetic reminded me of a mix between ancient china and japan. There were many groups of people in the arena, all being tested for their worthiness. The groups were color coded. Each group was named in some fashion, but I don't recall the names. The blue group was mostly young girls and they were deemed the most intelligent. There was a group of beige/brown colored clothes. That group was deemed unworthy for the arena's God. They were going to be sacrificed.

One man from the beige/brown group begins to panic and sweat. He makes a run for it. There are guards everywhere, dressed in full body robotic armor. The guards chase him but he escapes the arena. I follow them, but part of the time it feels like I'm running, while at other times I'm floating. The city outside the arena has the same ancient china mixed with ancient japan look. It's futuristic but not in a cyberpunk way, I don't know how to explain it. There are large walls surrounding the whole city. It feels more like a never-ending marketplace. The sky is barely visible because there are things hanging from the various carts, buildings and shop awnings. Despite this, I can tell it's a very bright and cloudless day. I stumble through the city following the escapee.

I overhear someone mention that those who seek asylum from the city must leave beyond the giant walls. Finally I find a large entrance/exit to the city and I see the escapee leave. I leave and see what the outside is like.

It looks like a suburban white neighborhood. Even though it looks middle class, the streets are filled with people sitting around, possibly homeless.I'm walking down the street when suddenly I notice two women in front of me who are only wearing their underwear. They’re both heavy set, pale, blond, and dirty looking. They're smoking. I look into someone's car and see someone sleeping in it. Another woman. The car is packed with her stuff, I think she lives inside it. In the back is a pitbull dog that looks terribly sad. I had a brief thought: "wow this movie gets all the details right!". Then I wake up.




[DREAM 9/27/2020]

I was at a fair of some sorts, in the middle of nowhere. It was mid fall and the sky was overcast. It was a bit chilly outside but in a pleasant and welcoming way. The fair grounds were flat and covered in dry dirty hay and mud. There were many tall thin trees surrounding the fair and they had few leaves left.

I was looking at the star of the fair: a large, nearly hairless, male goat. It looked similar to a double rex rat or patchwork rat, in that it's entire body was hairless outside of specific patches of curly fine hair. It's face was an odd mix between goat and hairless guinea pig. A very striking animal, with an otherworldly power. No wonder it was the star of the fair. The fence that was between me and the goat wasn't very sturdy. Suddenly the goat rams the fence and knocks it down. It's chasing me, and I'm running down a long path with dead trees surrounding me. The path gets narrower the longer I run.

Suddenly I look down at my hands and see that I'm holding a bug, similar to a centipede but not as intimidating looking. It stretches and transforms into a large serpent creature with flesh wings. I recall the wings had talons and looked sort of like thin stretched out hands. They were somewhat transparent and filled with stringy veins. I was excited to ride on the serpent and I felt safe. It had a nice texture against my skin. As we fly, we come across a beach and the ocean. The serpent laughs and crashes into the water. I'm struggling to swim and I'm confused why this newfound friend would sabotage me. I feel the serpent's tail grab onto my legs and fuse deep into them. My legs were one with this creature.

The viewing angle changes from first person to third. I'm looking at myself struggling to break free. Suddenly everything is quiet, as if time froze. My body looks at me, straight in the eyes. I say "help me" in a whisper. I watch my body get violently dragged underwater.

I "wake up", but I'm still in the dream. I don't realize I'm still asleep, but I feel panicked. My bedroom is dark and I'm sleeping alone. I don't seem to know who Ian is so sleeping alone felt normal. The bedroom is filled with many toys, more so than my current collection. There's a large flat screen tv at the end of the room and it's flickering. I fall back asleep.

I wake up again in the same bedroom but a dim light is on. I get up to look at the tv because it has a message. "BECAUSE OF AN POOR DIET," reads on the TV in green pixelated large font. I thought it was hilarious, the odd grammar. I remember who Ian is and I want to take a picture of the tv to show them but then I get unnerved and paranoid. I hear this cracking noise, and I'm scared the tv might be out of my control and possessed. Maybe it will show me something scary.

There’s a dresser in the room with a large mirror. I turn myself towards it. At this moment I feel somewhat lucid. I look at my face, and it feels like the most realistic render of my own face I've ever seen in a dream. Right down to the acne I had at the time. But my hair is quite long, like it was in highschool, and I'm wearing a vintage nightgown which I do not own. I realize that I'm in control of my own face and that I'm dreaming, so I try to contour my face into something sinister. I can't though, because I'm still in a human body. I began laughing maniacally and grabbing at my face. I have the biggest smile I've ever seen on a human. I'm panicked that something really bad will happen.

I look behind me and see a large pink stuffed rabbit. It's half my size, and has these odd cheap looking cartoon plastic eyes. It's looking to the side, with sleepy eyelids. Everytime I blink, the rabbit's eyes turn direction. Left, right, left, right. I can hear my waking body snoring really loud. I'm on the verge of waking up. I stumble over to the rabbit and grab one of it's plastic eyes. With each snore I close and open my eyes and watch the rabbits eye change its direction. I'm laughing so hard, it's so scary but incredible that I have the power to make this toy do what I want.

I become so full of anxious energy I wake myself up with a large full body jolt.




[DREAM 9/3/2020]

I was in a stadium of some sort watching an event. every seat was filled. The aesthetic reminded me of a mix between ancient china and japan. There were many groups of people in the arena, all being tested for their worthiness. The groups were color coded. Each group was named in some fashion, but I don't recall the names. The blue group was mostly young girls and they were deemed the most intelligent. There was a group of beige/brown colored clothes. That group was deemed unworthy for the arena's God. They were going to be sacrificed.

One man from the beige/brown group begins to panic and sweat. He makes a run for it. There are guards everywhere, dressed in full body robotic armor. The guards chase him but he escapes the arena. I follow them, but part of the time it feels like I'm running, while at other times I'm floating. The city outside the arena has the same ancient china mixed with ancient japan look. It's futuristic but not in a cyberpunk way, I don't know how to explain it. There are large walls surrounding the whole city. It feels more like a never-ending marketplace. The sky is barely visible because there are things hanging from the various carts, buildings and shop awnings. Despite this, I can tell it's a very bright and cloudless day. I stumble through the city following the escapee.

I overhear someone mention that those who seek asylum from the city must leave beyond the giant walls. Finally I find a large entrance/exit to the city and I see the escapee leave. I leave and see what the outside is like.

It looks like a suburban white neighborhood. Even though it looks middle class, the streets are filled with people sitting around, possibly homeless.I'm walking down the street when suddenly I notice two women in front of me who are only wearing their underwear. They’re both heavy set, pale, blond, and dirty looking. They're smoking. I look into someone's car and see someone sleeping in it. Another woman. The car is packed with her stuff, I think she lives inside it. In the back is a pitbull dog that looks terribly sad. I had a brief thought: "wow this movie gets all the details right!". Then I wake up.




[DREAM 7/26/2020]

  • I was in a giant maze outside, everything was covered in vines, moss, plants. The maze was made up of multiple little square "rooms" with concrete looking walls. The walls had patterned on them that were alien to human eyes. They were filled with ridges and looked as if the imprint of a humanoid body was encased inside. Reminded me of H.R. Giger.
  • Despite the walls, there was no ceiling. The floor was pavement in some areas, grass in others. There was always a tree or two in the middle of each room that was much taller than the concrete walls. All the plant life was overgrown and the space felt as if it was reclaimed by nature.
  • I was searching around the maze for stuffed animals and dolls. There were various decorative water fountains in the rooms. I found some stuffed animals in the water fountains but they were dirty. I was a little afraid of them but I felt like it was my duty to save them.
  • I was talking to another being. I never saw them, but I knew they were near me. That person ran off while I was collecting toys. They ran to go visit a large body of water that was to the right of the maze.
  • I went through a large gate, there I could see a huge landscape of never-ending forest under where the maze was. It looked like I was on a mountain cliff. I walked to my right down a dusty path to reach the body of water.
  • The body of water was surrounded by trees. The water’s edge was oval, but in a natural shape. The edge where the water met land was sharp and hard like a rock formation. The water did not have any shallow points, it went straight down to it's deepest depths.
  • The water was perfectly clear and below I could see the lake's "god". They were a mass that looked like a spider to a certain degree, but the limbs were more free flowing like tentacles on an octopus. They were encased in the bottom of the lake, completely still and hyper textured with many ribs like the creatures in the walls of the maze.
  • I knew my friend from earlier came here to reunite with the being, as they were one in the same. I was excited to swim to the bottom and be a part of this being as well.
  • I started to remove my clothes, but I was having a hard time. It was as if they were too small for me. I wasn't wearing much, just a tank and some shorts and sandals, and yet it was the most difficult thing to remove.
  • There was a family on the other side of the tree I was leaning on for support. A mother and her two small children. They were splashing in the water and it annoyed me. The kids pointed at me and started to ask their mother about me. She felt it was appropriate to bring them over to me and demanded I spoke to her children. She seemed annoyed that the kids were so fixated on me though. I was annoyed too.
  • I was panicking because I couldn't get my shorts off my fat ass. I just wanted to be in the water so bad. I had this feeling it would be cool and refreshing and I needed that. Now I had these kids and this mother watching me half naked struggling to undress. They didn't seem to notice or care. I never responded to them. I remember thinking "I need to get these clothes off soon or else I'll wake up before I can get into the water". Unfortunately I woke up right after thinking this.




[DREAM 7/8/2020]

I was at a campsite, and at the center there was a perfectly square swimming area. The area was surrounded by trees and it was overcast. Not really good weather for swimming but I wasn’t cold when I entered the water.

There was a wooden structure above the square pond. Four thick pillars, each connected with a zip line. The pool had layers like stairs, with the center being deep enough that the water was hard to see.

I was swimming in the pool for some reason, but I kept getting out. I used the zip lines a few times since they seemed fun. Another person was there all of a sudden. I don’t recall the whole discourse, but she wouldn’t leave me alone. She was bragging about something and it felt like talking to a child but she was obviously an adult. At some point she grabbed my phone and threw it into the water and started laughing. She was laughing and apologizing, acting like what she did was a simple mistake. I went to grab my phone from the water and it no longer worked anymore.

I was done with everything. I felt so exhausted and hateful of everything and I just wanted to get away. While in the water I went to the deep center and let my body fall freely. Underwater it was completely black and white. The center had a trap door and I fell in. Soon I was falling at rapid speed through floors and floors. Each floor was brighter and brighter. I knew there was someone waiting for me at the bottom and I could hear their voice but I woke up before I reached the bottom.




[DREAM 7/3/2020]

Ian and I found a vintage fast food toy kit. It was real food but miniature and we had to prepare it ourselves in order to eat it. There wasn't a lot of food in the house so we really had no choice. The food had obviously gone bad but we were gonna give it a shot.

I remember placing each individual item on the counter to see what we had. There was miniature soda cans: one orange and one sprite. The orange one was disintegrating in my hand. I was frantically looking for a shot glass to place the drink in, but by the time I found one Ian already transferred the drink into a glass. They drank some and said it tasted fine but was flat.

Other foods in the kit included a mini hamburger and mini fries and a mini pizza. I decided to sit down at the table and watch some TV while Ian prepared the rest of the food. There was another person next to me but I never looked them in the face. In fact I don't think they had a body, but rather they were a presence. I was talking to them about something I was heated about but I don't remember what it was. I flipped through the channels but every channel was the news or the simpsons. One of the channels played a very low quality rip of an episode where Marge was a mermaid. It was very sparkly, and made me nostalgic. Reminded me of an old anime.

Suddenly Ian turns the corner and tells me they're leaving to get some beer. I'm confused, but they assure me it's cus their favorite kind isn't in the house. They leave the house but also they leave the mini pizza they were deep frying on the stovetop. It smelled horribly rancid.

I move over to the stove to take control of what Ian left. I was a bit angry they would leave while cooking, for beer of all things. They don't even really like beer. In the pan is the pizza all burnt up and nasty, but it turns into bacon for some reason. I was trying to fish out the bacon and put it on another plate of bacon on paper towels. I was struggling though and just couldn't get it on the spatula.

The disembodied voice comes up from behind and laughs at me. They grab the bacon from the plate and slap it back into the pan. They grab the spatula and pan from me and pour the hot oil all over my legs while cackling. I woke up immediately afterwards.




[DREAM 6/29/2020]

I only remember the last part. There was a whole entire series of events that lead to this last part, but they weren’t very interesting so they didn’t settle into my memory.

I arrived at a coastal town with my ex. They were more interested in exploring the town, but I was hypnotically interested in the ocean. That feeling came over me again: this horrible longing to “return”, always to the ocean. I’m not even that particularly interested in the ocean in my waking mind so who knows.

Mindlessly I walked off of a dock that was nearby these beach side shops. I walked into the sand and there was a ship by the coast. I came by close and there was these people who told me that I was a chosen pokemon master. They laid me down in the sand beside the giant ship and began to weigh my body down with heavy rocks. They were going to bury me in the sand and for whatever reason it was related to the G1 pokemon starters. I recall them showing me a squirtle and charmander painting engraved into the side of the ship.

I had this feeling of peace, that this was how I was going to “return”. Another stranger came by, but their presence was very gentle. They infused the ability to live without breathing into my body. I remember feeling like it was a holy feeling but after waking up feeling disturbed at the idea I’d be buried alive and still be able to “function”.

In the last part of the dream it was night; I was alone by the ship but no longer covered in heavy rocks. The moon was the only light around. I swam in the ocean and found these colorful wolves and big cats that were smaller than average on the other side of the boat. I grabbed as many as I could and brought them to the sand and stuffed them into a cloth cube shelf drawer. I remember they felt limp in my hands. I tried to grab more but they kept attacking me. Then I woke up.




[DREAM 5/14/2020]

Needle Worms | nap dream right after taking my second testosterone shot

I was in some backyard by a tree. There were multiple hubba bubba gum pieces on the ground in the grass and dirt. As I moved closer to the gum pieces they turned into starbursts candies. The starbursts had thin needle-like wiggly bits coming out of them, like worms. They moved around in the dirt and grass very slowly. I wasn't afraid but they made me feel a bit uneasy. One of the worms poked into my ankle and slid into my skin. They no longer had the starburst attached to them. Suddenly, multiple worms started to attack me and fuse into my body. I passed out and was taken to the hospital.

Now I'm in a hospital bed and I'm connected to tubes. I'm going in and out of consciousness. I can hear a doctor speaking to Ian about how there is a parasite in my body. The worms are speaking to me as one entity inside of my head. The needle worms are a type of demon. They're telling me about how I'm a vessel and my body is the most compatible they've ever witnessed. They don't want me to be afraid, because they want to work with me and give me their power. They know I'm feeling bad all the time and that I don't really want to be alive. They say they can take over and be the front of my mind so I can take a break. They tell me that they love me.

I felt very relieved and excited to have these worms inside of my body. It felt like I could die but without upsetting anyone




[DREAM 4/18/2020]

stale air | nap dream (cw: nsfw)
  • The dream started in my old bedroom at my mom's house. It was empty in the room asides a dresser. I walked towards the window, it felt like LSD: Dream Emulator.
  • I looked out the window, I was very high up. Clouds were directly outside of my window. Down below was a field surrounded by a forest. It was all very bright and vivid in tone. The sky was hued pink and blue.
  • Suddenly I was forced out of the window, and I was holding onto the window seal. I had large angel wings and I was naked. I remember thinking "Of course this building is up so high, it was created just to scare me."
  • The outside of the building looked nothing like my mom’s house. It was a geometric modern looking tiny home. The bottom floor below my window had glass walls. The inside was minimalist themed and expensive looking.
  • I almost woke up because the heights frightened me. Instead I calmed down and the dream became somewhat lucid. I floated down to the ground and studied the area around me
  • I looked at the building I flew out of and thought about how it would be fun to explore the inside but that it wasn't very "sexy". I looked over behind that building to find an older looking ranch style home (possibly built around the 50's/60's). I was drawn to this building for whatever reason because I thought it would have a more erotic atmosphere.
  • Suddenly I was incredibly horny, so I phased through the wall of the older home and walked around looking for someone to fuck. The house was similar to one that I stayed at while in foster care, but was different enough as to not ruin my mood. I believe the living room had wooden paneling for the walls and the carpet was clean and pillowy. The whole house had a sort of stale air to it though.
  • I entered a bedroom that was similar to the one I had at the foster home. This room was different though because one wall was a giant closet. The closet was filled with sweet lolita dresses and a particular pair of red rubber knee high boots that had a strip printed on it featuring a 70's shoujo art style and flowers. The closet was open so I could see these things.
  • There was someone else in the room but I never saw them. I could only hear and feel them. They never said anything that stood out, but I know I heard them speak. We fucked, but I recall being worried about getting period blood on them. I was also worried that I forgot to take my tampon out.
Note: I fell asleep while watching a video game stream. I could hear the stream randomly throughout the dream. During the sex scene, I thought the streamer was mocking me.



[DREAM 3/2/2020]

The Merge
  • I was a teenager in high school again, hanging in the cafeteria during lunch. The cafeteria seemed more like an elementary school design than a high school one.
  • On the other side of the cafeteria, there’s a girl who seems familiar. She kept staring at me but when I'd notice she would get shy and turn away. I thought she was really cute so I went to go talk to her.
  • I got up to introduce myself to the girl, but was interrupted by another school's students who were entering the cafeteria. They had to eat at our school cus their school was contaminated with covid-19.
  • When I got to her seat she was gone. All that was left was a bath loofah and a hair comb. I grabbed them and left the cafeteria to look for her.
  • I wandered the halls, eventually I went outside to the football field bleachers. It was raining and grey outside. She was nowhere to be found so I walked back to the cafeteria.
  • I opened the cafeteria doors and everybody who was in there was fused together. They were a screaming fleshy amalgamation of bodies. It seemed whatever happened to them was painful. I ran away from the school.
The dream shifts into a new setting
  • I'm wandering through many places. I know I traveled for a long time but I'm not sure how many places I went. I recall fighting with a sea monster who was trying to pull me underwater after I fell from a waterfall. Eventually I end up in a forest. I'm looking for Ian. I believe that I'm in the apocalypse.
  • I find a village of giants. They're not super giant, but probably close to 10 or more feet tall. I’m smaller than normal though so they seem much bigger. One of the giants looks similar to Ian so I ask them if they are Ian.
  • They tell me they are multiple people fused into one body. Ian is one of the people inside them. They're kind and gentle with me and want me to stay in the village with them. Looking into their face is disturbing because they are so similar to Ian, but the way they stare at me is like they are a stranger. Like they had someone else's eyes. They look very tired.
  • Everyone in the village is multiple souls contained in one body. This is why they are giants. I feel like being around them will change something in me and this makes me uncomfortable.
  • I'm on Ian's shoulder walking around the village. Suddenly a giant woman falls to the ground and dies in front of us, her body shatters like glass. Above her head was the words "milk bottle".
  • Everyone in the village is dying and shattering with the same effect of "milk bottle" in red letters.
  • Ian places me on top of a table. Their eyes glaze over and they fall and shatter too. I said goodbye to them as they're falling. Dream ends.




[DREAM 2/29/2020]

Room 11
  • Road trip with ex from middle school
  • We were running away. I recall it was not quite night (twilight) but still pretty dark. There was a beach I could see from the shitty old car we were in.
  • Hotel room with giant fuckoff bathroom and a soaking tub the size of most standard bathrooms. I wanted to use the tub with a bath bomb soooo badly.
  • The walls of the hotel room had cabinets built into some of the large decorative wood paneling. This hotel was known for providing free art supplies for people to test out. They had airspray markers and copics I wanted to play around with. Also they had "support stuffed animals" that were for helping with sleeping. They looked like a generic cat and a dog plushie but with a ragdoll sort of slouch to their bodies.
  • The room service was super strict and controlling, like a nanny in a fancy mansion.
  • We got a call on the phone, it’s a pre-recorded message asking if anybody wanted fresh tea before bed. They say what number to call back, but I couldn't hear it which frustrated me. Also they didn't deliver to our hotel room which was room 11.
  • Suddenly it wasn't just my ex in the hotel room, it was two of my coworkers as well.
  • My coworkers ran to the room next door cus there was some college study party going on. The room was filled with snack platters of fresh fruit, bagels, tea and chocolate tarts.
  • They came back and were like "OMG U GOTTA TRY THE TARTS AND STUFF!!" but the head maid was coming to restock the snacks.
  • I ran in anyway, started to fill my hands and pockets with food. I was holding a cream cheese packet and bagel right as the maid was entering. I recall saying something like "man, I'm poor! Just let me eat this stuff”. I ran under the only table in the room. None of the college students studying seemed to mind and in fact were trying to hide me. They thought it was hilarious.
  • I was under the table squeezed as small as I could be. There was a young man and a young woman at the table on their computers. When I hid under the table the young woman could no longer put her legs under so she was upset. She said to the man next to her "I don't care if they're under there, I have work to do..." In a very annoyed voice. He told her it would only be for a few more minutes.
  • while that was all happening, the head maid arrived and was asking if anyone needed particular refreshments. She also mentioned that later there would be a demo on some interesting snacks that would be brought in at some point. As she was talking in her regal snooty voice I was very stressed under the table about the whole ordeal.




[DREAM 2/20/2020]

Change in the body (cw: nsfw)
  • Sunny day, in a wooden boat with two dudes.
  • Looking over the boat revealed crystal clear water, the body of water seemed more shallow than the ocean. No land to be seen though.
  • The men told me that a voice told them to bring me to that location, they were going to offer me to that voice.
  • No clue what was in it for them.
  • I saw a serpent-like creature swim around and under the boat. It was very long.
  • The two men grabbed me from my arms and threw me overboard.
  • I sank immediately to the bottom, I couldn't move very well but I could see underwater perfectly. Breathing wasn't an issue.
  • The thing grabbed me. Suddenly we're in a sort of cavern, but I can see the entrance and it's light outside still. I'm tied spread legged to a rock of some sort and I'm out of it. I have fins on my back that spread out like fairy/angel wings.
  • The thing is there in front of me, long black hair covers their face, their serpent body is mermaid like, they have scales.
  • They tell me the change is starting in my body already. They tell me I look like an angel. Now they’re going down on my pussy. I wake up before I come.